So I was looking through bank statements from the past couple of months since I’ve been too out of it to really pay much attention, and I noticed that my bd has been using my card and at one point last month, spent over $200 on his fuckin PS4. All on his stupid fortnite game. And I found that there’s been a whoooollleeeee bunch of other charges going back to March. I almost died having his kid, and a week and a half later, run up a $200 bill knowing I can’t work atm.

So I unblocked him and messaged him on Facebook because I just got my number changed just so he wouldn’t be able to get a hold of me, since he’s super manipulative and been trying to step up His mind games the past couple of weeks. Soon as I messaged him about it, he blocked me on both my main account and old account.

So I messaged his bestie to see if he’d relay the message to him that he better run me my money👌🏼 and his friend snitched him out 🤷🏼‍♀️

Imma be getting me a new card, and on Monday going in to file a report and get my money back. This dude is really straight trash. And I really hate myself right now for falling for his mind games for so long.

A few days ago, he’d also admitted to me that the whole time he was in my face trying to get me back and “do well for his family”, he was also in his other exes face tryina get her back too. Seeing who’d take him back first because apparently he can’t be single for longer than a couple weeks.

When I blocked his txts because I was getting too stressed out, he messaged me somewhere else sayin he was gonna just jump off somethin and he was sorry. He didn’t do it. I knew he was just trying to manipulate me because he’s done it before. Later, he posted on his snapchat story a picture of “his arm” all cut up saying “I don’t remember so don’t ask”. Turns out it was makeup or something because I called his granny about it. She said she looked all over him and there was not one scrape on him🙄🙄🙄

And I KNOW he’s trying to tell people I’m the cause of it and trying to say I’m keeping his son from him, because since then, fewer people will talk to me or even acknowledge me.

But tbh, after all this, I will keep my son away from him. Because he is so toxic. And he’s so childish. He hasn’t even met him yet, because he can’t keep a job to come see him. Had one for 2 weeks then got fired because he called off work to go fight somebody. Also, hes abusive in so many ways. I will not have my son ANYWHERE NEAR any of that, regardless of who they are to him. My son will have a happy life. I’ll find me a good man in the far future that will be able to be a good healthy father figure to my son. But bio dad or not, if you are toxic and would hurt my son, you’re staying far tf away from both of us. If dude could push me around and tell me that he wanted to make me cut myself, while I was pregnant with our son, I have no doubt he could bury my son now that he’s in this world.

P.s.

Whenever his dad sees him, he doesn’t ever say anything positive. He says stuff like “what’s wrong with my son” “why he eyes do that. Don’t let them do that” (when my sons eyes would go crosseyed every once in a while when he was still only a week or two old) “why my son look so funny” “he’s probably not even mine”. Or when he talks to him, he says some shit about when he gets older, he better watch his tongue or he’ll be “beatin that ass”. My son is 7 weeks old so I’m glad he won’t remember. That shit is not gone fly by me. so yes, this is not just out of spite for how he’s treated me. It’s how he’s talks to my son, and his character.

Rant through 🙄🙄 I’ll post an update when I go to the bank, and let y’all know if his stupid ass ever gets back to me about this. I’m done👌🏼

Quick couple of pics of Ma’kai though just to brighten the mood🤷🏼‍♀️ (he loves being held football style and can already hold his head up like its nothin😂💙 been able to do that since he was less than a week old😭)