I have been meaning to write this post but until today i really don’t know if i’m ready.

I’ll do it anyway.

For the last few weeks i’m slowly starting to wake up to myself and realise that i’m not going anywhere in life or doing anything and it really is time for a change. I’m 18 but i left school 2 years ago and i haven’t done anything since, besides only working ONE job and studied for literally a month and left.

I always say to myself everyday “i need to make a turning point, it has to be done” but then i end up lying and bullshitting to myself.. and it doesn’t happen!

I have went through soo much in my life and spent my teen years dwelling over the past and feeling sorry for myself but i need to toughen the fuck up and get on my feet.

My question is, what made you turn your life around and become successful? What was that big push? I always doubt myself and it’s really taking me NO WHERE! I’m always so depressed and tired of the same shit EVERY SINGLE DAY and i’m sick of it! i don’t know what i want to study or do with myself and my life but i know i just want to grow the fuck up and stop feeling sorry for what happened to me in the past. please what do i do i’m done living the same boring routine everyday! i need to show whoever underestimated me that i can turn pain into something beautiful but fuck i’m struggling.. 😞