How I’m feeling

I sit on here everyday and watch post after post after post an I see every one going through it trying to conceive 😢 an I’m hurting as well I had a miscarriage in May kind of scared it’ll happen again it. Kinda scared it won’t happen at all An I really deserve a baby . I do everything I possibly can too make sure everything is good with me before getting pregnant. I have a 1 year old niece who lovessssss me to death an I love her to death so I know if I have a baby. My baby is gonna be my heart I’ll never let anything happen or anyone harm him/her 😟😩 I want a babyyyyyy like why is it so hard it’s like you wanna give up but you can’t 💔💔💔💔💔