Should I feel gulity?

This my second child and I don't want to breastfeed him. I tried with my daughter and it hurt so much. She wouldn't latch so I ended up pumping which hurt alot. I had to pump every hour and a half or I would leak huge puddles on my shirt and it feel like I was carrying bricks. I'm not saying it will be this way for everyone but this is how it was for me. I don't want to go through that again with my son. Should I feel guilty for not wanting to breastfeed him?