Deployed husband asked for divorce

My husband of almost 5 years called me up one day and said that he wanted a divorce. I told him okay as our marriage has been through several rough patches due to infidelity and lack of trust from both parties. However, we have a 2-year-old who I’m afraid is going to be affected by this. We have tried to reconcile but I feel we are becoming more distant by the days. He is currently deployed. At one point, he stopped calling to check on us and when I asked why he replied because he needed space (not because he was on a mission). He didn’t speak to us for two weeks. My intuition is telling me that he is becoming emotionally involved with a woman who he told me he occasionally talks to. He wrote it off as a harmless friend checking on him while he’s deployed but I don’t know who the friend is. Seriously, I’m tired and I’m hurt. We both are. But I am unsure if I should give up. My family does not know we are going through this. In fact, no one knows. We appear as the ideal family. I do what I have to do as a woman to take care of our child and myself but I can’t help but feel like a failure every time I look into my child’s eyes.

After telling my husband okay to his request for divorce, he became upset after awhile that I was eagerly going through process of trying to prepare. I never explained to him that it’s not because I wanted to divorce (because I would love to be happy with him) but it’s because I’m scared that I’ll end up struggling while he continues to live his life. He supports our family and although we have assets together, I would not be able to afford to maintain those things on my own. I am scared that I won’t be able to support our child. I know that he will help out but I am not use to doing it alone.

SN: I am not looking to hear that we are bad people or do not deserve to stay married. I am looking for true insight into my situation, whether we are together or not.

UPDATE: So I sought legal counseling today and was told, as one person stated, to wait until he returns. The courts will stall the process because he has to be served. The attorney suggested we figure out how we would split property (we own a home and cars together). Before I went into the meeting though, my husband begged me to not go forward with it because he wants to suddenly work things out. I can’t help but wonder where all the eagerness is coming from. He admits that he’s been a butt and that he has been talking to women but that they are friends. One of them tho, almost caused us to break up while we were dating because I found them sexting AND he’s still talking to the chick. I just do t understand what part he doesn’t get about cutting ties. If the shoe were on the other foot he’d be pissed. He had my MIL call me several times but I didn’t want to talk to her because he always seems to “call mommy” when we have issues. However, now I’m at a loss. I want to work this out as well but truly don’t trust his intent. Idk idk smh