Short story about my childhood

My whole child was miserable because when I was little I didn’t have my father by my side and I was would get sexually harassed by my turtor , older men and I never told my mom it’s Been 10 years since In 6 grade I was sexually forced to give this boy you know , I got depressed started cutting myself , from 7 to 9 grade people talk about it still that’s why no one would date me , every mins I wish I was born , I try to commite suicide and I got a little better I don’t want to my friends or family about I wanna talk to a person that will understand me and now that my favorite rapper died life became depressed again he helped me he made me smile he was an inspiration to me now he’s gone 💔😓