Feeling upset and disappointed

So throughout EVERY year in school i’ve always been on TOP! I’ve been in honors classes, ap classes, after school programs, was taking high school classes in middle school, took college classes in a good college in NYC, put in effort into every single project and much more!!! I put in a lot of work throughout the years, but i guess my senior year i slacked a tad bit... anyways so for graduation i didnt get ANY awards! It was sooo disappointing i didnt get a recognition or ANYTHING. My mom and my whole family was so disappointed you should have seen them. I wanted to cry and i still do because of what my mom has told me. I feel like such a disappointment I honestly just wannna make her happy and proud of me and i know she wasnt. I feel so dumb and stupid i wish i could have done something. Im also mad i didnt get anything after everything i’ve done. Im so sad that my mom thinks im a disappointment.