Blah, not sure what to title it.

So, here I am 28 weeks pregnant, less than 90 days to go and not liking or enjoying being pregnant at all. I haven’t taken a single photo of my bump, I feel like I look gross, disgusting and fat. I’m beyond insecure (way more than I’ve ever been in my life), even though my boyfriend tells me every single day, multiple times a day how he thinks I’m beautiful and gorgeous and perfect. I don’t think much or talk much about my pregnancy. Every time someone asks me about it I just answer with one word and change the topic, I rarely leave the house because I have no clothes that fit and have gained over 40 lbs and am now weighing almost 200 lbs at 5 foot 1.5 inches. I don’t have the pregnancy glow and I’m over this whole pregnancy. I am not even sure if I’m even excited anymore to meet my son. I just wanna feel decent at least in my own skin. I’m not sure why I feel this way since I have had a beyond easy pregnancy and I’m sure it’s nowhere near being over and I’ll probably go two weeks over like both my sisters did and my mom did with all three girls. I am just over being pregnant. Everyone talks about how much they loved it and how I’ll miss it but I’m not sure I will. 😞😕