I got my monthly this morning... And for the first time in months... I'm not sad. don't get me wrong I really really want to be a mom.. but I have been trying like crazy to let go of my anger, guilt, and fear..(had 2 miscarriages in the past) And I think it's finally working :) I know I will have a baby when the time is right.. but for now.. I'm enjoying my summer and time with my husband and bonus son