❌Was this wrong?!❌

When i was 14/15 I’m not sure how old i had a boyfriend i thought i loved as id never had a “proper boyfriend”,

I’m 19 nearly 20 now and have opened up to my fiancé he thinks its wrong but I’m scared that its partly my fault that i didn’t say no

Me and my best friend used to hang out with my boyfriend at the time and her boyfriend they were best mars as well

He was 18 and used to take me up to a stairway in the carpark we used to hang about in and finger me i hated it because it hurt and he used to make me touch him and give him hand jobs

Id be sitting in a carpark with everyone and he’s keep saying come on lets go alone and id say not yet but he’d keep on and on so id just go with him for him to finger me he used to go back to his best friend and let him smell his fingers and brag made me feel so dirty i haven’t heard from him in years as i didn’t want to be with him due to him being 17 and having sex with my other friend when she was only 13! I didn’t know this at the time pf being with him.

Whenever me and my finance have sex and he fingers me i go mad at him thinking he’s going to smell his fingers sounds silly i know but he says he’d never do that i trust him 100% but cant get over my ex and what he done

Also another time we were at my best mates and he was fingering me under a duvet i fell asleep and woke up to him still doing it her mum and dad were in the same room i hate him for it i rang my dad and got him to pick me up this was before we split up just want advice on how to forget and get over it