What in the actual f^%#

My husband and I have been TTC since the first of the year.

Of course, we haven’t had any luck yet. I’ve spend entire months, tracking, testing, and doing everything. So I took this past month off of tracking and testing.

I did a few ovulation tests but I think I missed it, I’m not sure.

Now my period was due 4 days ago & I still haven’t gotten it. Which is great! However, in this situation I was hoping for a BFP but all I’ve gotten was BFN’s (5 of them). I’ve used all kinds of test so I don’t think it’s that mine were defective.

Sunday night I’m pretty sure I had an ovarian cyst rupture because I was in a ton of pain & ive had them before so I don’t go to the ER anymore. But anyway, I’ve never had it effect my period.

Idk what to think or do, I’m just frustrated.

UPDATE****

I’m almost 1 week late. Super emotional. Nipples still hate me & no sign of AF. I stopped testing because it just pisses me off at this point. Like wtf. All I want is to get that BFP & know I have done something right.