I think I f’d up.

So i’m about to turn 18 and and my boyfriend just turned 20. We’ve been together almost a year but knew eachother for longer because we met at work. I’ve been on birth control for 2 years and recently it’s been making me very angry and moody and actually crazy. So I decided to switch my pill but until my doctor appointment i just quit taking my pills. He’s always finished inside me because i’m

on the pills. Well we’ve been talking before about having a baby within a year or whatever but how he wanted to get completely financially stable first, I agreed. But recently he said to me “we can have one now if you want to” And of course I said awe really omg because I really want one. But that’s really all that was

said, but i’ve been off my pills for prolly over a week now and he’s been finishing inside me with no hesitation and i’ve been happy because this is what I really want. i’m not a wild teenager who goes out and parties and stuff me and him talk about getting married getting an apartment and starting a family. But i’m having second thoughts now!!! I feel like I fucked up. i’m scared... I want a baby yes but I don’t know if I do right now but it’s too late and I don’t believe in abortion. There’s nothing I can do now and i’m terrified. In a way this is what I want and other ways it isn’t. omg.