mother in law

so my mother in law lives in New York. We talk with her about every day,

well back in April my boyfriend and I found put we were expecting and we couldnt be happier. he told her of course and idk what she said but he said she hoped for a boy so I assumed she was happy. well June the 2 I miscarried at 14 weeks. once he told her she wanted to talk to me (mean while I'm still miscarrying) I assume she wanted to say some kind words or what ever the case may be. (she only speaks spanish) she goes on to ask me "Kassandra what did you do to my grandbaby" "why you kill my grandbaby" as shes laughing!!!!

I didnt know what to even say back I stayed silent because I felt like if I opened my mouth I'd cry. as I had been crying for days at that point.

she then tells me that maybe it wasn't our time and that we should wait longer (we have been together 4 years and trying for 3) we have a 4 year old that I had in a relationship before (we meet when me daughter was 6 months old) anyways how rude of you! and also said maybe my baby was "retarded"

like how and who say that and to someone that's going threw something like this

so now I'm 5 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend wants to go to his mothers house to tell her tomorrow (were going to visit his and my family) I just really can careless to tell her am I wrong for feeling this way?