Depressed

I’ve been away my boyfriend for a week. And it feels like a month, and I guess u could say he’s my happy place, but I get back from my vacation tommorow (which is why i was away from him for a week) and then he leaves tommorow for a week, and he leaves early in the morning so I won’t see him. And idk, I’ve been feeling down lately. And I really wanna cry right now, I’ve been holding it in and everything, and idk what to do. I’ve wanted to cut. Which I have in the past, and he said if I cut he would be really mad with me. So i know that I’m not gonna do it but I need your help. I need to talk to someone and just vent and cry.