I don’t know what to do

I’m currently 23 weeks pregnant and since the beginning of the pregnancy my depression and anxiety have gone out of control. I have never had it this bad. I’ve grown to be insecure in my marriage and in life in general. I want to talk to my husband but I feel like I’m pushing him away with my insecurities. I’m paranoid about everything now. And I feel like he always thinks I’m accusing him of something, which I guess he has a right to believe considering my behavior, but I’m just trying to get him to open up with me. However I feel like the more I try to get him to open up the more I scare him into hiding things. I feel like he thinks I’m going to over react to everything and I’m really trying not to. I can’t help that I just want to cry about everything now. But I really want to strengthen our communication because right now I feel like I’m just pushing him away and it’s driving me crazy. I told him I would really try to trust in him more but I can’t get past my insecurities. It’s not helping that my depression is at an all time high. I have frequent breakdowns and really bad thoughts about how my husband and baby deserve better than me and other things.... I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’m not usually one for posting things on the internet. I don’t even really know what I’m looking for with this, I guess I just needed to talk and maybe get opinions.