I am trying to relax and not stress. but something just clicks in my brain and I go into panic/research mode. I have spent the last 3 hours thinking about every little thing. Like the fact that the dh and fought the day after positive opk instead of bd, will that be the cause of us not getting that bfp? or was my opk taken the day after the postitive actually negative or did I miss read it and my O date is actually a day later and if that's the case I really freak about not bding that day. or about how my average cycle is 26 days and my ovulation was cd 16 so that means I have a 10-11 luteal phase and depending on the source they say that is too short. or the fact that everyone in my family gets pregnant while on BC and I am over trying everything I can and all i get is bfn. I usually am fine during the day but once night rolls around I freak the f*ck out and can't stop thinking about every little thing that can ruin my chances this month. and yes I know I am a worrier and pessimist but sometimes I just can't help it. it doesn't help that my dh is like it will happen when it happens and I am like but you don't know that! (little background he refuses to adopt and we can't afford fertility treatments, so I worry if it doesn't happen naturally I will never have kids) I just need to know I'm not the only one who is like this and to maybe talk me down from the crazy ledge. I just know I will be devastated if it doesn't happen and he will be like oh well we will keep trying