Due date is here on what would have been our twin boys day

January we had our miscarriage of our twin boys. Both in two different days. It was one of the hardest feelings in the world to go through. Luckily I had a strong man by my side to help me along the way.

Yesterday marked the day of what would have been our due date. I knew this day was coming. I feared it as the days came closer. Two days before, that same man that I relied on to be my rock, we had put our relationship on hold.

So now on the weekend of what would have been our due date, I am spending it alone.

It is so hard. My heart hurts always. I miss my strong man by my side. I wish our baby boys were still here. I wanted to experience that joy of driving to the. hospital.

We even thought I was pregnant that day of the fight. I was 5 days late. We have been trying to conceive a week after our MC in January. A day later I started my period. It lasted for two days & stopped.

My heart just hurts non stop. I want my family back. I want to go back home. I want my strong man back.