Is it weird I never want to have sex

I don’t know why but i really never want to have sex i just think it’s dirty and disgusting. I also have an extreme fear of men I find it really hard to be in the same room as a man and usually when I see a guy for some reason I hold my breath and can’t breath and I don’t know why I also can never look a guy in the face I always have to look away just to be able to communicate with them. I want to have sex but I don’t think I will ever be able to because if my fear of men and being dirty makes me not want to do it. What could be wrong? If I can’t even breath near a guy I deffo won’t be able to take my clothes off or sleep with them