Not having a good day

One of my great uncles that helped raise me died yesterday and his funeral tomorrow. I feel numb right now, we knew it was coming at some point because of his bladder cancer, but I know all of the emotions are going to hit me at some point and my hormones are going to make everything worse. My husband is trying to find someone to watch our kids for us because I am anxious about taking them to a funeral. My older two do not take death well since they saw their grandfather die in front of them this past December.

sorry for the rant.