I don’t think I want to be married anymore 😔

Alright so to give y’all a brief summary of my marriage, let me start by saying we are separated at the moment. Separated as in he lives with his mother & my 3step kids & I live with our 6month old.

Anyway, I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I’m tired of not living together. I fee so out of place. He wants to move back together when we can afford to rent a house. Mind you I have a two bedroom condo and I have to keep up those bills before I can afford saving to rent. Plus it’s so expensive! He also has to pay rent at his mothers house. So it’s like when the hell are we going to have enough to save???

I’m so tired of having a text messaged, weekend marriage! This is not want I thought my marriage would be like. I really don’t want to get a divorce but I really don’t know what to do and moving back in is not an option for him. The kids will be going to school by his mothers house which is pretty far from my house. & I most definitely won’t move into his mothers I’m too old for that stuff.

Sorry, this is super long and I’m venting. I guess I just pictured my marriage to be a lot different. To be honest I regret it so much. I feel like marriage is supposed to be a covenant of two people becoming ONE and we definitely are not that. We love two separate lives. His literally raises his kids alone as I do our cub.