going back to work

I'm getting ready to go back to work next week at 7 weeks postpartum and I've been a disaster trying to cope with the idea of leaving my 2 year old and my new baby to go to work😭 unfortunately I didn't have paid maternity leave but I was able to save a couple thousand and those ass holes only allowed me to be out 7 weeks. Is anyone going back to work soon or I'm I the only one? I only breastfeed and the idea of having to pump to leave bottles breaks my heart, I don't feel ready to go back so soon 😭😢. I just had to sorry vent