I regret my relationship

This is the second night without my babycats and I'm worried I'll never get them back. I'm the type of person who has their pets forever through anything and I'm worried they'll be taken from me. My boyfriend is going through some mental issues and they brought my babies to the other house, which no one told me about so I feel like I've been lied to. His attorney isn't getting him the help he needs, instead is being a dick to everyone. My boyfriend has been leaving the house and no one know where he goes. Is he with an ex? Is he checking up on me? Probably not, cause he hates my guts, he thinks I betrayed him. I have two job interviews tomorrow back to back then a counseling appointment, and I'm trying to do it all and keep busy but fuck, time goes by too slow and sucks.

I miss the man who used to show love for me, but his delusions have overcome him and turned him against me. I regret getting into this relationship. In one year I went through 2 break ups and met him after, it was too early for me to jump back in. I met him at a fucking hotel and fucked on the first night which isn't me. I didn't care about myself anymore and this relationship has seemed like another waste of 2 years. He probably thinks I'm cheating if he can process me in his mind, and the funny thing is, I'll still remain faithful through all this