Echo ultrasound because of Zoloft 😞😡😭 -semi long rant, so upset

Hi everyone, so on top of having a traumatic Pap smear yesterday, my OB also wants to schedule me for an echo ultrasound in a few months because I am on Zoloft. I have really bad anxiety and depression and have been on medication for the majority of my life. When I got pregnant, my Pcp & I made the decision to drop me from 50mg to 25mg and I still have really bad anxiety because the dose is so low. The obgyn flat out told me they could not tell me what to do about the medication, and then when I met with the nurse she told me that Zoloft was perfectly fine to take during pregnancy. So for the doctor yesterday to tell me I needed an ultrasound to make sure my baby doesn't have a congenital heart defect because of the SSRIs that I've chosen to take really set me back.

I literally feel like throughout this ENTIRE process I can't do any fucking thing right. No matter what I do or try to do, it feels like the wrong choice. I thought staying on the smallest dose possible would at least help me a little mentally and not hurt the baby, and I still cry all the time. Apparently now I could be the cause of it having a heart problem. Also didn't know I could opt out of a Pap smear, could have avoided having to call out of work because I was bleeding so bad and terrified.

I feel like as a FTM I know nothing and everyone/every place I go to is telling me something different. I just continue to mess everything up.