venting

As a little back story I found out I was pregnant in May and then miscarried the first week of June. I had a terrible experience with my doctor. I had my first period the end of June and my second is sypposed to start tomorrow. I am trying to move forward my husband and I started trying again this past cycle and was heart broken when I had a negative test this morning. I felt so mad at myself/my body and was sooo sad that I wasn't pregnant after hearing so many people say at least you know you can get pregnant and that we'll you know you are more fertile after a miscarriage. Than I get the mail this morning and I get another bill from my doctor for the rhogam shot I needed after my miscarriage (they billed me before for the visit but I guess forgot to charge me for the actual shot). And that just broke my heart again. I know it takes time but today I just needed to vent and get the hurt off my chest.