Honestly lately being a young mom really sucks. My fiancé and I have been together for a long time & we chose to have our son because when I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis I feared losing the ability to have a safe, tolerable pregnancy as well as fearing one day being unable to walk & just not being a good paren. They caught mine very early, early enough that I don’t have brightly visible legions on my brain or spine, but the fear just took over. Lately it’s just been very lonely. The friends I have don’t have children, they’ve just graduated from college and are really only just starting their lives. I feel as if I had to grow up quickly because of many different factors ( many before I even gave birth to my first son), and it just makes me feel extremely distant than those my own age. What makes it worse is my fiancé’s family is really hurting me. They’re not nice to me at all, haven’t really ever made him feel like part of their family, and now it’s pouring over into the treatment of my son. They say they love him and act like they’re these loving, adoring grandparents to everyone but they don’t ever see my son. We go weeks without hearing from them and if we make no effort to drive to them ( a 2.5 hour drive for us with a toddler who hates the car) we will go months (the last stretch was seven) without them seeing him. It frustrates me to no end that they will put everything before their own grandson but make us look like we are the bad people who distanced ourself. My family I adore but as of late, after another family member had a baby, I feel like it’s a bit of the same. I’m sure some of this is my hormones. It’s just been very lonely lately, and it’s getting really exhausting being the only person making the effort to meet up or see people. I wish I knew more people who had kids my sons age so we felt more socialized. I feel like I’m failing him in some ways because he has no one to play with. Sorry for the rant.