Confused 😣😣

Little background info about me before I jump in to my confusing situation in my mind :

My name is Lindsey. I am 26 years old. I have two boys who are almost 6 & almost two. I have a very loving boyfriend of 4.5 years .

Currently in my mind (I’m sure it’s something I’ve created in there as a situation ) I want another baby . Like yesterday . My boyfriend & I are on the whole working on big steps , like buying a house , getting him a better job /building a career for him , being parents & we’ve had the baby talk . Except this seems to be my issue: I feel like my biological clock is screaming in my head/heart . I’ve known since the hour after I gave birth to my youngest that I would want another baby within the next 2/3 years . Well guess where we are ... at that time frame... I feel like my body is going crazy & thinking “ok time to get pregnant!”

This is the thing : I don’t think we are ready to have another deep down just yet . But I also worry about my high blood pressure & how sick I got with my youngest that if I wait any longer than this next year , I’ll end up high risk . Both of my boys I was induced because of my blood pressure . One born at 38 weeks , the other at 37.

I guess overall , I’m asking for opinions or just if this is normal To experience because I feel like I’m obsessing at this point . 😩😩