Today is my birthday

I’m writing this with such a heavy heart and a Terrible feeling .... i started to miscarriage Saturday and it was confirmed Monday that i was in fact miscarrying it was the worst pain in my life not only the cramps but in my heart ! You want this so bad when you see those 2 little lines that changed your life in and instance and then it’s gone I’ve never felt so down in my life... i have a great support system and so many people trying to help and say that one thing that may make me feel better and it just doesn’t... it sucks . You plan a whole life in your head for your baby then it’s just gone it makes me scared to ever try again i pray for everyone who has and will go through this ! It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever endured ! You love that little bean with your whole heart , immediately you become a mama ... now my baby is in heaven and it’s looking over me i just hope it knows how much it truly was and is loved !