TRIGGER WARNING: self harm relapse

Hey guys, I’ve been struggling with mental health issues and self harm for a long time. But it’s been a very long time since I’d cut myself. I’d though about it and struggled but I hadn’t done it for a long time. I’ve (in my messed up mind) downgraded to other things like scratching or bruising but the other night I was having terrible anxiety and violent intrusive thoughts. I relapsed and cut myself for the first time in a long time. I feel like I’ve lost my progress and I don’t know what to do.