Am i being selfish 😔🤷

Hello. Names Jesta and I am a tired but happy momma of 3 boys. For 8 mos now me and my other children's father have been trying to concieve and hoping for a girl, and have not been successful, a few scares, no baby and means no baby girl for me. I never had issues before concieving children and always did honestly when I was not trying to have children. All the births were very complicated and the last birth left me with a lot of damages. Plancental abruption tore right through me. The doctors said I was still able to produce children but I decided to USD the IUD for 4 years until this Jan I finally had it removed to try for a girl. Could I be unfertile due to previous issues and I'm i selfish for wanting to try one last time and getting upset every time the test is negative since I already have 3 beautiful kids?