kinda long, sorry.....i am starting to wonder if i should ask my OB to put me on some sort of medication, but i don't know if i actually need something or if i am just incapable of really caring...? i haven't ever been diagnosed with anything and i don't know if what i am feeling is some sort of depression or not, but i feel like i just don't care about anything? i mean i have moments where i feel fine or I'm not thinking about it, but then i have overwhelming moments where i just don't give a crap. even before i was pregnant, it would just come on and last for a few days to a week or so where i didn't care about my life or my relationships and feel real down, but like i still got up and went to work? i mean can you be depressed or whatever but still function at work or get out of bed? now I'm pregnant and this whole pregnancy, currently 29 weeks, i can't say there has been a single moment where i was necessarily happy or excited, i feel like I've just been going through the motions and i am terrified that once this baby is here, how i feel will be worse, like I'll go through the motions and care for my child, but I'm scared that i won't feel any real love or affection...i feel more happy that my husband will get to be a father than i do thinking about the idea of being a mother, i mean, i don't hate the idea, but i just don't care..? does that even make sense?... I'm sorry this is so long, i just wanted to get my thoughts out to people who i thought might give me actual advice (i know i need to talk to my doctor more too) instead of saying "oh your instincts will kick in" or "you'll be fine dont worry about it".....i don't know what I'm even asking lol