Things got shitty

so ladies i let

my husband use some anal beads on me. My first time doing any type of butt play. All was good in the beginning. we did doggy and i actually came pretty hard as he was hitting it from behind and i had a vibrator on my clit

BUT..

When i pulled those fuckers out, they literally pulled out so much shit with them. I pulled them out over the toilet because i just had this feeling yano. Well I’ve never been so grossed out. Idk if all the lube just oiled things up or what. Idk how in porn they literally get fucked so hard and it’s clean as a whistle. I made sure i pooped right before and it was pretty solid. Anyway I’m kinda fucking traumatized. I don’t do shit well at all. Help. Probably never messing with my ass like that again. I had high hopes for trying full on anal one day. 😂🤷🏻‍♀️😭