In law rant🤗

As me and my OH have been trying for our baby for over a year and a half now. At the beginning before the big life changing decision to have kids I got on great with my in laws but now all I can think about is not wanting to have a child who will be part of their family! They're a sneaky bunch all sweet and charming while around you but can't wait to tell my oh how much better off he can do without me. The mother believes she's a teenage girl dresses very inappropriate! She has on many occasions showed her *girly parts* to the crowd of teenage boys who hang around our local park., I just don't want my child to be attached to that type of name! I feel suffocated with it as my poor oh just doesn't see if as it's his mother, I don't trust her to ever have my child over night and they would be safe, she's forever taking violent individuals into her home and is forever very clear on how violent she can be, I just don't want to ever have to bring a child into a environment as such but I can't just block her out she is my oh mother after all!!! The thought of those people being the in laws fate gave me makes me consider not having a child anymore