I did it again...

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Please, I need help/advice, not hate...

So I have very severe depression and moderate anxiety. I was diagnosed when I was 16, which is when I first cut.

I had so much going through my head, as I also have PTSD.

I'm now 21 and gone so long without harming myself, but now all of my 'demons' have come back... So I haven't been in a good place for a long time (18 months).

I'm struggling both with inner demons that no one knows about, but also a bit with home life, such as consistent arguing (not me, but family members) for example. I moved back in with my mum and sisters a year ago, due to not being emotionally stable and I was scared I'd do something stupid to myself.

Unfortunately tonight, I've been left alone with my thoughts, and all the shit from my traumatic experiences has come flooding back, so I cut again... And again... And again...

It's not deep, just enough to leave a bit of scaring... But I just had to satisfy the urge I've had for months. I've had suicidal thoughts, but I don't want to die.

This may seem like attention seeking, but it's not, I genuinely would like some advice, as I dont feel comfortable talking to people about my issues...

Please someone?