Am I being stupid?

So to start off this post it all started back in January.

Me and my husband have been together ten years and married for 6. In January I found out he cheated on me but remains adamant it was only a kiss and messages

So after much discussion we decided to ty and work things out but included in this was the subject of porn...

Over the years I came to notice that when he didn’t want sex it was because he’d watched porn and sorted himself out!!

So part of the agreement was that porn was off the table unless we watched together.

These past few months though a few things have happened which have made my insecurities worse.

It started about 2 months ago. We had a date night arranged and these always lead to sex. However before the night even got started he told me it wasn’t going to happen. Later that night I found out while I was at work he had watched porn and sorted himself!

A few weeks after this date night happens again. I get out the shower and come downstairs to him watching porn on his phone. He said he was trying to get himself in the mood!! So this to me says I’m not enough to turn him on for sex anymore.

It came around again the beginning of this week when I asked to look at his phone. I opened the internet and straight away the porn site loaded.

This made me so upset. I poured my heart out to him yet again about it all.

I said to him just imagine with the insecurities I have about myself.

Your husband needs to watch porn in order to want sex with you. Or on the other hand would rather sort himself out to avoid having sex with you.

He doesn’t seem to get why I feel this way and im starting to think he really doesn’t care at all about how it makes me feel. And doesn’t respect me enough to honour what I have asked of him in the many conversations we have had about this.

If this was any of u ladies what would you do? Any advice is appreciated.

Thanks for reading.