Help please

Long story short , I lost my job 5 months ago .. depressing and a feeling of awfulness . I had a supporting boyfriend , family . I’ve lived with my bf for over a year got a house together ( in his name ) I have a daughter and so does he who we have partial custody of 4 days a week same days . We just got a puppy about a month ago . The puppy was like my baby as I realized my days of having another child have passed .

We have had our ups and downs , fights what not , but many great times .

I was drunk , mb him too but being drunk I started a argument ( which all our bad times have been after me drinking , which I only drink about 2x a month) we were driving I threw my iced coffee at him and started hitting him .. got arrested ( haven’t been in trouble for over 15 years ) he’s not letting me home , see our puppy and basically saying it’s over .... I am a mess

He has told me in the past I need to get help for my issues and I never did , ( I don’t know why)

I asked him if I deserve to have no place to live and sleep on couches with my daughter and he said yes . I asked if we could talk he said he’s not ready , I promised to never pick up a drink again and I’d go to therapy . ( doesn’t believe me )

I want there to be hope , I can’t imagine loosing everything ....