Noel My Angel

August 26th 2018

The day estimated we would finally meet you and take you home

Instead on you came April 10 2018 4 months too soon

We expected you to come into the world crying and strong

Instead you came in silent and cold

We couldn’t wait to finally kiss you hello

Instead we had to kiss you goodbye

I don’t know whats worse the pain of what happened or what never will there isn’t a day where I don’t think and cry about everything i could’ve done different if someone told me 4 months ago that instead of planning a baby shower and getting your birth certificate I would be planning your memorial and getting your death certificate I would never believe them it hurts so bad seeing how lonely noah is he begs me to have a sibling he cries and asks why did sister have to go to heaven because he doesn’t have anyone to play with and it kills me because he doesn’t know that since we lost Noel we’ve been trying to give him a sibling ever since but it just hasn’t happened so we’ve just stopped we miss you so much Noel you will never know that impact you had on my life with the small amount of time I spent with you 💗