No offense but I didn’t want to be a part of this group

But this group of women is so strong and supportive. I’ve been reading your posts and comments tonight and I’m like, wow what a beautiful group of women!

I found out 5 hours ago that I am miscarrying. I’m “only” 5 weeks. Everyone is saying it was just a ball of cells. But those cells were supposed to grow into my baby, who was going to grow up to be anything he or she wanted. I have a 2 year old daughter, well she turns 2 on September 1. I feel like I failed her. She’s so social and lonely and I wanted to give her a sibling so bad. I wanted to give my husband his boy, or another daddy’s girl.

I feel like this is the moment that divides my life, everything is before and after this loss. I know many of you lost your babies further along and my deepest condolences. I know it sounds silly to be so crushed over a 5 week pregnancy loss but it was still my baby. The moment I saw the blood, i wish I could forget. So much blood.

Thanks for letting me vent ladies. Sending love and positive thoughts to you all 💕