Anyone else with me?

598 days I have taken prenatal

211 day I have taken garlic root for my ovarian cysts

Vitamin D and iron for deficiencie

And extra folic acid per doctor recommendation

I have tracked my ovulation via opks for 505 days

According to them I ovulate anywhere from day 12- day 23

According to blood test.. I dont ovulate..my progesterone it to low.

I have had 10 blood draw (one more before clomid)

4 ultrasound (one more after my next blood draw)

To many doctor visits to count

I have shed way to many tears over pregnancy announcements, gender reveals, birth announcements. And hell even seeing pregnant women in I dont know I'm public.

I have BLOWN threw pregnacy test like no other even when I feel the "day before" craps kicking in.

I get my Hope's up every cycle if my period is due and I wake up an it hasnt started yet.

We got a puppy.. visited him every week until he was old enough to come home. Hes now 7 months...he almost helped

I'm falling into a depression that I cant dig myself out of

I've gained 40lbs

I'm starting fights with my husband...

I honestly hate everything about myself right now....

I just keep telling myself...one more month until I can start clomid...one more month until it MIGHT be my chance...

Sorry to be a debby downer.. I feel like I've bombarded my husband with my complaints for long enough and I really dont have anyone else to talk to

My little guy give good hugs though