Hating My Body

I absolutely HATE how I look. I’m overweight for my age and I’m not made fun of but I have been talked about behind my back.

According to someone on my softball team; someone said I was “fat, ugly, and probably didn’t have any friends” which... isn’t ENTIRELY false.

I’m overweight for my age and I’m kind of a reserved person. I don’t have many friends. I have a small group of friends, the theatre kids, and a handful or random friends. However, I often feel alone, like I don’t have anyone to talk to.

I’m really insecure and have taken online tests for anxiety and depression (which I apparently have but I haven’t been diagnosed by a doctor so I don’t talk about my problems.

Sometimes I think no one cares so I avoid talking about it seriously.

I wish I had a therapist or someone but I can’t talk to my mom about it. I don’t think my mom “believes” in that stuff. By that I mean she thinks it’s just overreacting to small stuff. Which it is. That’s what anxiety literally is. It’s a disorder. But I don’t know.

What should I do?