Weight loss motivation!

Hello everyone, I am 24 years old, 4’10” and weight 135lbs....in the last 3 years I have gotten pregnant twice due to me reaching a healthy weight for my body (gotten down to 105lbs both times). Both times I have had miscarriages and gained 30lbs with both pregnancies each. I am very tired of this up and down rollercoaster with losing weight, getting pregnant and gaining it all back. I’m trying to loose about 30-35lbs and maintain the weight....I am looking for ways I can stay motivated or even find a partner that would wanna talk maybe every other day if not everyday to keep on another motivated! Let me know and TIA😊