I want another baby.

I'm 37 weeks pregnant. My unborn son has been diagnosed with a rare genetic condition in which the doctors say he probably will not survive the week after he is born and won't leave the hospital. (I have already come to terms with the fact that everything happens for a reason. I've known since I was 12 weeks and decided to continue with the pregnancy. That was my choice. And that's that.) So the father took off when I refused to have an abortion the moment I found out I was pregnant. Funny enough, almost 8 months later, he's come crawling back. Wanting me to be a part of his life and work on our friendship and see where if goes. I'm like hmm I guess. I mean tbh he keeps buying me dinner and taking me out so I'm like meh ok. But we actually get along great despite the whole being pregnant and the fact that the baby won't survive thing. Anyways. Maybe it's my hormones but because I'm gonna lose this one, I want another baby. I'll be honest I like this guy. And I know he likes me too. But I don't know if he'll want a baby (you know, again). Would that be me using him pretty much as a sperm donor? I'm not sure. I've always wanted to be a mom. And I really don't want to just sleep around. I want a baby. But I don't really need him around if he chooses not to be.