First Time Frenzy ?

So ladies I’m 18 & have fantasized so many times like any other girl how my first time would be, you know all romantic & mind blowing and shit with the boy you love or with ya future husband ..well this ain’t gonna be that.

& I really need some girl advice on how this should go..

I’ve been talking to this guy who’s fine as hell & is very experienced at having sex.

I really liked him at first & thought “hey I can see myself being with him” all lovey dovey & shit like

& he’s one of those guys where if you seen him randomly you’d be like “I’d fuck the shit outta him😭” even with being a virgin.

But it has been brought to my attention that he only got in a relationship with me to fuck 🤨

like my guy at least show me you care now I gotta show you I don’t give a fuck about ya fine ass.🤦🏾‍♀️

It kinda dawned on me when he kept asking me where I was at & he was always tryna link LATE AT NIGHT, I’ve been really busy lately so we ain’t seen each other & that kind of gave me time to think about this shit.

Like did I really wanna lose my virginity to this dumbass boy & regret it ?🤔

Or

Was I just overthinking the whole thing cause I’m tryna use him for his dick only ?

I know y’all like where that shit come from

I mean if he gone use me I might as well use his ass & dead the shit.

Your first time being with someone that’s experienced & knows how to please your body should be wild ☺️

I’ve really thought about it & my sex drive has been really EXTREMELY HIGH lately like for WEEKS my mind has been clouded with different fantasies of him fucking my soul out my body & I’ve never really masturbated until today & I tried it with ICE 😭 like yo that shit felt hella good & can’t stop thinking bout the bomb ass pipe this boy could be laying down 😂.

But just let me know what I should do.

UPDATE: You guys are right & idk if it’s just the hormones that got me all hyped up for sex but I can wait & be comfortable with whoever I do lose it.. I just wanted to be really good a friend of mine lost hers to a guy she had just met the day before & she went over his house to chill and next thing you know she was calling me saying she fucked up & regretted it & he ain’t care if she was a virgin or not & I don’t want my first to be like that so you guys really just opened my eyes. 💗