Having trouble being able to feel sexy and happy postpartum?

I feel like I can never be sexy because of my stretch marks from pregnancy and my cellulite that has gotten worse after pregnancy. Only surgery can fix it and I can’t afford it. I don’t feel sexy or liberated by it, I feel ugly and unattractive. How can I fix my cellulite and stretch marks non surgically? Please don’t tell me to be proud of them, I’m not and will not be they look ugly and make me feel horrible about myself.