Anyone else???

I had to stop taking my Lexapro (antidepressant) once I found out I was pregnant. I was SUPER happy when I found out (me and my husband were definitely trying for this baby). Since I’ve been off of this med AND my hormones are out of wack-everything has gone to crap! I hate my current job (that was happening somewhat before I got pregnant though), I don’t feel like dealing with anyone, I just want to stay at home or stay in bed-I’m back to being depressed-like I just want to quit everything. Currently, I can’t switch jobs cause I carry the insurance (my daughter and husband are on there), gap insurance doesn’t cover pre existing pregnancies, and I can’t NOT have insurance since I see an OB atleast once a month right now. I spoke with my OB about “pregnancy safe” antidepressants and he said he doesn’t want to start me on anything right now especially in the first trimester. Y’all.....I just feel stuck and miserable. I hope I’m not the only one....😢💔