losing my best friend.

about a month ago, i could tell things were getting tense between my best friend and i. we were constantly butting heads and it was kind of draining trying to get along with her. i wanted to discuss it with her, but everytime i invited her over to chat, she would blow me off. a few days later i received the longest text of my life from her. it was basically a list of all my faults, which i am very well aware of, and why i needed to change if we were going to be friends. i could tell most of it was just her blowing off steam (her family’s having a hard time and she’s been really stressed about a few things), so i sat down with her a few days later and talked it through, and apparently she meant a lot of what she said. i just felt destroyed. i know she’s a good person, and i love her to death, but if she really thinks bad things about who i am, then how could i stay friends with her? apparently most of the girls in my friend group think some of the same things. they still act like my friends, but you know that feeling like you aren’t really wanted? that’s kind of how i feel with them. i want to switch groups, but i have my senior trip with them coming up at the end of the year, plans for dances, and i don’t want to be left alone for my senior year.

i could really use some help and advice. any ideas as to how to handle this?? am i okay to be hurt and want to switch groups??

thanks for your help :)