Toxic relationship...

I started dating my boyfriend two years ago.

At first, everything was wonderfulll, we were getting along so well and we were so in love

But a couple of months into it i decided to lie to him about my past...it was the worst decision ever and it was made out of shame. I was ashamed of my past.

I finally told him the truth but obviously he stopped trusting me

He loved me so much but my mistake was the start of our toxic relationship

He started being very jealous of every like i got from a boy, he thought that i was taking showers or dressing cute for a boy (which i was obviously not) and he was generally very restricting...we were fighting almost daily and he wouldnt be okay with me leaving the house for anything other than school or family visits (going out with my parents included).

And i thought i deserve it...and maybe i did

But one and a half years i kept up with this kind of “lifestyle”

Until i decided that i was full of it. And 4 months ago i told him i wanted to end things because i was realizing how toxic we were for each other

We stayed 4 days broken up, he was still pleading for me to start dating him again, he was telling me that he realized what he did wrong and he will change. I said no because i was afraid of the life that i had for so long

He asked me to give him one week “trial”, and if i were really done, to just broke up. I accepted

The week went by and i told him that i am get back together with him

I thought he changed but i was still scared cuz you know, they usually dont change

Its been 5 months since we are back together

And i’ve never been so proud to say that he didn’t lie back then...he changed

And i love to have this life where i can go out with my girl friends or parents or whatever, where i can post pictures on instagram, where i am not afraid of any step i take

I love him so much and I’m so happy that we are back together. I know that this usually doesn’t happen, but I’m glad it happened to me.

If before we were fighting like everyday, we had like 4 (small) fights since we got back together.

God bless you all and thank you for reading. 💕

(The picure is from 2 ys ago!)