I’m so hurt

Lack of attention really does fuckin hurt. I walk in the House always and my boyfriend is either asleep or going to work. The only attention I get is when he wants sex. We never go out or he never makes plans to take me out I have to nag him just for him to take me out. This has been happening all year I’m completely broken now. I just want to feel special without forcing someone to notice me. I feel ugly maybe if I was beautiful he would love to spend time with me.