So my sister just told me she is pregnant. And I am so happy for her and I'm so so so so excited for my baby to be a big brother. But I am so devastating and heart broken. And I feel like shit for feeling this way. I am so Jealous of her right now. I really feel like I also hate cuz she is pregnant. And I hate myself for feeling this way! I love my big sister so much and I really am so excited for the new baby!!! He/she will beyond perfect in every way!! But why. Why cant I get pregnant I have been trying for 2 years after miscarriage and doctors apt after doctors apt. And she gets pregnant with out even trying. All I can do it cry and I hate myself for thinking about me at this amazing time on my sisters life. Please no hate messaged I already feel like shit as I should. Please dont Judge me. Thank just needed to vent.