Fear of developing ppd or ppp

Hey everyone!

With my first child I developed the baby blues pretty strong. I was on Prozac 20mg through pregnancy and got it upped to 40mg after I had her. I feared having post partum psychosis with her but never had any symptoms of it. I’m pregnant again (this time with a boy) and I am so fearful of developing ppp again. I feel I can deal with the ppd if I get that but I am convinced that if i were to develop ppp I would do something so irrational such as harm myself or the baby. (I also have harm ocd but that’s a whole bother story)

If anyone has developed post partum psychosis, what was your experiences???