Breastfeeding struggles

Anybody else finding breast feeding extremely challenging?? My LO latches fine, no issues there. But mentally I’m finding it completely draining and exhausting!

Constantly smelling of milk (and I can’t stand the smell of my milk - yuk!!!), doing the feeds on my own, my LO stuck to me all day and cluster feeding constantly, leaky boobs, waking up in the middle of the night with 2 boulders on my chest and needing to express, frumpy maternity bras (I’m 23 - frumpy isn’t my usual vibe), forgetting what dry nipples feel like....

I’m not going to lie, I don’t even feel like my little boy bonds with me as a result of the breast feeding. We don’t gaze longingly into each other’s eyes as other mum’s say! I just have to keep reminding myself that I’m doing what’s best for him.